My weight loss journey started after becoming a mother of two beautiful boys, weighing in at a staggering 107kg and that at the age of 23.
Growing up in a poor family, I was never introduced to proper nutrition. We had to be satisfied with whatever was available, after I met my husband in 2010 and fell pregnant with our first son, I started gaining weight. Using pregnancy as an excuse, I ended up eating whatever I felt like and steadily gained 26kg. I lost all my self-confidence and sense of self-respect. I got stretch marks all over my body and felt so ashamed that I couldn’t bear looking at myself in the mirror. I felt like I could never go back to the way I was before. After my son was born I managed to lose 5kg over a period of 10 months before I was blessed with another baby. I put back all the weight I had lost and gained a few more; a total of 13kg where I reached 107kg. I fell into a deep depression and slipped back into my old self-sabotaging habits. I used food as a comfort or distraction when I was anxious, angry or upset. It was my coping mechanism and I let it dictate when and what I eat. I hated who I had become and ended up withdrawing myself from the rest of the world.
My mother who lived with diabetes and in a battle with cancer made me aware of the alarming fact that if I carried on the way I did, I was most likely to also get diabetes. This made me realise that if I wanted to be around to see my children grow up, to share in all the highlights of their lives like school and weddings, I would have to make some drastic changes and make healthier life choices. I got tired of people asking me when my 3rd child was due and the negative comments on my wedding pictures. What was supposed to be one of the best moments of my life, turned out to be a nightmare. Looking back at the photos I can’t believe how big I was. I just got tired being the fat version of myself. I heard of Kelfit run by Kelly Stegen. If it wasn’t for her I don’t know where I would be today.
My journey is far from perfect. I always had this idea that if you gym you lose weight, but It was only after I started that I realized that healthy food choices, proper nutrition and a lot of sacrifices and hard work is what makes it successful. In July 2014, the worst unexpected thing happened , my mother lost her battle and sadly passed away. I was devastated and it felt like my whole world was turned upside down. But it was then that I realized I couldn’t give up. This was my wake up call. I had the choice and chance to change my life and live a longer healthier one. I manage to convert my sadness and anger into determination. I still sometimes struggle to fight off that inner voice that tries to tell me differently, but I’m doing it!
My family also had to make some sacrifices. They are very careful not to buy food that would in any way tempt me. There were many times I went to bed early crying just so I would not cave into temptations. My husband is very involved in my training and ensures that I’m up every morning at 4 to be at gym, which sometimes felt like absolute torture. He helps me train and motivates me when I feel like giving up. My sister that lives with us helps a lot with my two boys when I’m training.
When I first heard of Rossi I doubted my own ability to succeed and still feel so unreal that I did it. I’m covered in marks and not nearly close to where I want to be, but the Transformation Division inspired me so why shouldn’t I. I follow the saying: “You shouldn’t let your past define who you want to be”.
This has been the most amazing rollercoaster ride of my life, but with my amazing husband, the best coach and support system, I am doing it, proving that if you put your mind to something, you can achieve anything. I have not only transformed my body (which I’m still doing) but my mind-set and outlook on life as well. I’m starting to love myself the way God intended me to, WITH ALL MY BATTLE SCARS.
From not even being able to tie my shoe laces without taking a second breath, to running a half marathon and doing the Rossi grand prix and I would like to continue a path in fitness.
People start to notice me and I can’t get enough of the positive comments I get.
I have learned so much during my transformation, and I’ll use the knowledge to improve.
I hope to inspire ordinary girls who gave up on life, like myself, the opportunity to dream, bigger than you could ever imagine.
On 22 May 2015 I weighed in 44 kilos lighter.