When I was initially asked to share my story with my fellow Sleeks, I dived at the opportunity. I was proud of my hard work, but hadn’t come to terms with the fact that my journey was far from over and far from a success. I took a nose dive off of the wagon over the festive season, and hadn’t really come to terms with my failure until I tried to wear the clothes that fit me just six weeks earlier. My first draft was so sugar coated and rushed, that I am not surprised that I gained weight. So here I am, telling the story again – the real one.
It’s probably best to start at the beginning, when my body woes started. As a young kid, I was given the nickname of Poppie Duk, which roughly translates to fat doll and if you saw a picture of me as a baby, you’d understand why. I had porcelain skin and the chubbiest, rosy cheeks. What was meant to be a term of endearment, tormented me throughout my adolescence. I come from a family of sportsmen and women who all excelled in their chosen sports, but I was skipped when the Athletic genes were being dished out. I was born with a mild case of hip dysplasia and while it wasn’t terrible growing up, when I hit puberty I had to have metal pins inserted into both hips to keep them from popping out of joint all together. This hindered any activities that required I use my legs, which was horrible for someone who loved dancing with every inch of her being.
I was reasonably active growing up, but still couldn’t achieve the athletic build that my cousins had. I was reminded frequently that I was overweight and although it was meant with good intentions from those closest to me, it broke my self-confidence. I remember being told by my cousin that the only way I would ever have the perfect body was if I had an eating disorder, so that’s exactly what I did. I developed bulimia when I was 13 years old and switched between bulimia and anorexia throughout my teen years. It wasn’t until my unplanned, accidental pregnancy at the age of 20 that I temporarily stopped purging. You will be amazed what food in your system and a pregnancy can do when you’re binging without the purge. I ballooned to a massive 85kgs when my son was born. I gained 30kgs within the 6 months that I (knew) that I was pregnant. Combining that with an already low self-esteem, post natal depression and the not-so-gentle reminders that everyone else in my family lost their baby weight within seconds of giving birth, I was at an all-time low.
Fast forward 7 years later, a billion fad diets later and a trillion attempts to “reclaim my life”. I kept failing and I know why – I didn’t think that I was worth it. Looking back on it now, I think that the one thing that really helped boost my confidence in my own ability was when I started posing for Pin Up styled shoots. Being labelled a Plus Size model or Curvy gal really didn’t bug me, and no one said anything negative about my body (that I know of) in any of the shoots. But what struck a nerve for me was that I didn’t like what I was seeing. When I wasn’t being posed by a photographer, I looked awful.
That was when I decided that enough was enough. I came to terms with the fact that it was all my fault and that I needed to become my own best friend before anything would change. So that is exactly what I started to do. I saw a Facebook post from a friend of mine on doing a 360 challenge, and I was intrigued. I decided to pledge my outside participation and see if I could do it without the commitment of signing up. The same friend then introduced me to the SleekGeek community and suggested that I Facebook stalk Prava and Celeste for inspiration. I did and I was inspired!
I signed up for gym, adopted a reboot diet and started drinking water. Since that day, there have been blood, sweat and tears shed along with the kgs. The blood comes from the wagon falls that I’ve dusted myself off from. The sweat is from actually using a gym membership (rather than just saying I will), and the tears are both of joy and frustration. The only problem was that I was still purging, I hadn’t come to grips with my eating disorder yet. My journey is far from over, I believe that it has only just begun. My original goal was to loose 15kgs, I surpassed that in November when I hit an amazing 18kg loss. But I climbed off the wagon and gained another 6, but I take full responsibility for that slip.
I am now in my 4th week of the first 8 week challenge for 2015, and I couldn’t have made a better decision. I started it with the intention of winning the prizes, because who doesn’t want to win great stuff? But now, I am more focussed on how amazing I feel and what I am learning from this experience. I have totally incorporated the Paleo lifestyle into my family life, I gym on a daily basis now instead of once a month and hoping for the best and I love myself again. I am proud to say that I haven’t purged since the 10th of December 2014, which is a big deal for someone who couldn’t go a day without purging. My greatest achievement since embarking on this journey though is that I am a better mom to my active 8 year old son. I don’t sulk and mope around the house anymore, and he really enjoys that his mom can lift heavy weights like an Avenger.
My message to anyone thinking of taking their lives back is to just grab on! There is no time like the present to take control of your life and there is no better way that to start by loving yourself. Stop waiting for Monday to start, Monday will never come. You have to commit to start today. Start now! Get up and move! Believe that you can do it, even when you are heaped on the floor after a wagon fall. There is no obstacle that can’t be overcome unless you aren’t determined to overcome them. Everyone has a story that makes them who they are, but you are the author of your own story and you dictate how it ends.
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